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| freaking david
imma kill you hahahahaha
i am NOT crippled!
just temp out of service
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so today at GLDI, i played basketball with the guys here. there's this rim that's mounted next to the wall and i tried to dunk on it. i missed and when i was landing, i sprained my ankle on where the wall and ground meets. it hurt quite a bit but i walked it off and i ended up playing a game cautiously. after that i went to my room and i was just limping around like all those times i hurt my ankle and just the seminar. well i thought it was ok and i
walked it off and stuff and then i got ice and iced it while i was in a
seminar. when it was over, i got up to go over to sign up for the drama
committee, i felt this freaking intense pain and i just started
collapsing so i went to my suite mate steven and i was like "dude, i
need you man" and i fell. when i sat down and looked at my ankle, it
was freaking huge and it was swollen up to 2 inches above my ankle. i
was in so much pain that my friend told the director and then all of a
sudden ALLLLL of the staff was around me with like so much commotion.
im thinking like "wth have i done?" they prayed for me and then they
wheelchaired me to the staff room where we waited for another staff
member who was a doctor. she came and looked at me and told me it could
have something to do with my ligament and stuff. anywho, the whole time i feel like im dying and such, and it's still killing me. when they were wheelchairing me to the staff room, we
passed by the common and freaking like ALL of gldi saw me and it was
soooooooo embarrassing haha anywho, my suitemates brought me dinner and
like everyone kept visiting me and i got to know the whole staff pretty
well. after that we went to the service and it was soooo
blessing but then right after, the presider's like we must pray for a
brother and then someone wheelchaired me up to the front and ALLLLL of
the gldi students saw me. omg it was so embarrassing hahahahaha and
then they prayed for me and then right after, when it was over, some of
the students asked if they could just pray for me outside, including verona and david, and they prayed for me outside. and then i came back up to my dorm
and freaking, im so famous at gldi in such a way i NEVER wanted to be or
want to be again
freaking feel bad and feel so sorry for all those people who are concerned about a stupid ankle sprain
i don't think i can even ball for a while
suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucks
sooooooooo freaking embarrassing too haha
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| i want to find a girl right now, buy a house by 25, get married by 27, have 3 kids (preferably 2 sons then a daughter) by 35, and then love my family as much as a tiny fraction of God's love for me....
is that so wrong??
i just want a kid right now
i want to skip the steps of g/f and wife
i just want a son and pour my love to him, just rain it down on him
and show him tough AND gentle love
spoil him but keep him WELL within check
you say "sam, you have no idea how hard it would be. to take care of the baby and all"
so...? i don't care how hard it is...
with that much effort and time going into it, all that trouble and "pain", come much more love and rewards
no one can take this dream away from me
NO ONE!!!!
well, God can but He's a trinity and It's actually the Father, the Son, and the Spirit, and yet One God, so we'll just leave that alone
but other than Him/They
NO ONE!!!!!!!
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| ignorant @$$ people
ok, racism pops up in the least expected places
im driving down rosecrans and about to take a right on beach. at the intersection i see a middle aged korean couple standing there, waiting to cross the street. all of a sudden, to my left i hear "GOOK!"
i turn and see this freaking 12 year old looking white girl with an old bearded man at the wheel...
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yea, wtf...
as im looking at her, she goes on, yelling "F*CKING GOOK! YEA, I'M TALKING TO YOU! YOU'RE A GOOK!"
i turn back and see the couple in shock and just not knowing whats going on while this girl is yelling at them and the bearded man is just sitting there watching the whole thing happen...
in those couple of seconds several thoughts are going through my head
1) get out and slap that little b*tch
2)get out and sock that bearded b*tch
3)get out and just yell at them
4)tell the korean couple to get in the car and drive them across the street
5)get out and just talk to both parties in a nice way to get some understanding going for the situation
but as those few seconds ticked by, the car behind me honked(whether it was to me or the girl, i dunno) but by instinct i just went.
the following seconds i was just thinking of why i didn't do anything and what could have i done?
if that man was really a white supremest he'd prob be really into the gun amendment and the NRA...
what could have i done? what should have i done?
in freaking buena park, nearby the most concentrated korean district in OC other than Garden Grove...
people need Jesus... and education...
i wonder if this is righteous anger...
probably not but im still freaking pissed off nonetheless
i thought i left it all at GA
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| its so hard to live a life worthy of the name "Christian"
so hard to avoid letting the devil get a foothold in your heart
i grow so cold and heartless to sin that eventually, not only do i fail to notice that im sinning but i also start compromising that its not that bad or bad at all....
to live a life worthy of the cause is only attainable through grace, its so humbling to realize and remember this
we can never conquer sin, only God can and did. through His mercy and grace we must strive to perfect ourselves, though we'll never be perfect until we meet Him in heaven
sin is such a serious thing, Jesus shows us how serious by describing gory descriptions of what we must do like gouging out the eyes or cutting off the hands
if only it were true that i wouldn't sin anymore after doing such things...
i freaking hate sin and my sinful nature, more i dwell upon this the more i come to realization on how much more great God's grace and mercy is for us sinful sinful sinful creatures
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